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Leslie Gaines, aka Leslie Moreland Gaines, aka Leslie M. Gaines

leslie the asshole

Leslie Gaines is a criminal, a con man and an artistic failure. He has stolen — from me personally — business assets worth at least $66,000. In addition, he has physically assaulted me, stolen from me, and invaded my home. Warning: do not ever, under any circumstances, trust this man.

He is a liar. He never speaks truth. He sheds crocodile tears. He is a bad actor. He is a hypocrite, a racist, and a descendant of General Gaines, one of the foremost murderers of native Americans in this country’s history. He is cursed by the Seminole and the Miccosuccee tribes, and I believe he is also is suffering from early onset Alzheimer’s, or some other form of dementia. Or, just as likely, he has just rotted his brain with too much drinking & drugging.

He abuses women, uses & emotionally abuses everyone he meets, and continues to steal from my by using my deceased brother’s name on his work! I pray that he doesn’t harm anyone else. Look at his face and run from it, should you see him. Forewarned is forearmed. I owe the world this warning, both as a human being and a fourth generation attorney.

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Pretzels & Chocolate, a poem

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PRETZELS & CHOCOLATE

(rented room, cigarettes)

I am eating pretzels
and they are hard
but splinter into salty crumbs

with the merest bite
they only satisfy
part of my tongue

(rented room, cigarettes)

so I pick up the chocolate
greedy for it to melt
against my palate

sucking the firm square
feeling it mold to me
the way I imagine

my body molds to yours

(rented room, cigarettes)

retaining the character of sweetness
to complement the salt
to balance my mouth

I am eating chocolate
thinking of us
together

(rented room, cigarettes)

illustration mockingbird mimus polyglottos

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Heavenly Dances, Heavenly Intimacies, a short story

illustration heavenly dances heavenly intimacies

Heavenly Dances, Heavenly Intimacies, a short story

“Isn’t there any heaven where old beautiful dances, old beautiful intimacies prolong themselves?”

Ford Madox Ford, The Good Soldier

How can I be “dead” to any of the men I once loved?  They are not “dead” to me.  Not even H.  How can I be “dead” to H.?  They — even H. — are each as alive as when I was with them; as alive as the first time they touched me, whether tentatively or with confidence; whether softly or roughly; whether with passion or mere lust.  It is shocking and appalling how H. lurched so radically to the right after 9/11.  He began that journey to the Tea-Party-Mad-Hatter-Neocon-Bill-Buckley-Wall-Street-Apologist-Fringe-Brainless-Faux-News-Right when Ronald Reagan was shot; I was with him the very night it happened.  We had a short affair, right then, because we started thinking the end of the world had arrived and we decided, like the crazy college students we were, to get married to celebrate our courage in the face of chaos!  I realized very early on (but still way too late!) I was embarrassed to be seen in public with him.  Did you ever start seeing, and marry someone whom you later realized you were embarrassed to be seen with?  Perhaps the person in question was “dorky,” “geeky,” dressed “badly,” or had questionable “taste.”  H. readily admits he was a “dork” in high school.  He was on the debate team; need I say more?  When you can’t bear to be seen in your lover’s/spouse’s/significant other’s/partner’s company, things usually don’t work out.

Still, I put in ten dutiful years, trying to make amends for my mistake in marrying H.  The second he started making the big bucks, he dumped me.  He left me for my best friend!  I guess I deserved it, not taking control of my own life & filing for divorce two weeks after we married.  And I guess I deserved how my ex-best-friend S. ruined me, as she subsequently did.  She was in charge of the whole group we had socialized with:  dictating how everyone in our “circle” should think, speak, act, or react.  H. was dead wrong about most everything, but, to his credit, he was dead right about her.  At the time I thought him merely woman-hating, but I see now, even though he did hate women, there was something more than simply being a “woman” he hated about her.  He was covering up the fact he loved her by pretending to hate her.  Now, I have no desire to see her, not ever again.  She is definitely “dead” to me.  Yes, I understand intellectually, a living death (call it shunning) can happen to anyone.

The upshot of all this boring history?  I’ve been waiting for something a long time.  I can’t blame anyone but myself for my unhappiness, not anymore.  There is something dispirited inside me, something empty, drained, and beaten — something sick, something tired, something that has surrendered.  I gave up, when?  When my first ex-husband arbitrarily said no to children, breaking his solemn vow.  When I realized I couldn’t find happiness outside myself — not with an old love, not with a new love, not with any of my subsequent husbands, my friends, my eventual children, or my family.  Yes, to casual acquaintances and virtual strangers I am “happy, happier than I’ve ever been.”  And it’s true!  I’ve never been this happy, this contented, in my life.  Yes, there are still problems.  My oldest son is still half the world away, fighting an endless war on behalf of my “country.”  My youngest son still has an ignorant, racist, rabidly conservative father.  I am getting old.  My face is melting.  My neck is turning into a wattle.  I am drooping.

Still, I cannot imagine any of them, the men I have loved or made love to, being dead to me the way my former best friend, S., is dead to me.  Yet that is how they must feel about me, the way I feel about her.  Wanting her removed from my memories.  Wanting never to have met her.  Not missing anything about her.  She wants to see me, I heard from a mutual friend I still speak to.  I don’t want to see her, or even see the mutual friend.  I don’t even want to get as close as that!  Because of reasons.  Top secret, NSA, DOD, CIA, FBI, SEC, IRS, FDLE, GPD, ACSO reasons!  No further comment!

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Bill Whittle (William Alfred Whittle), “PJTV” ultra-right-wing, neocon “media darling”… owes the government a BUNCH of money! he always did expect the world owed him a living… hypocrisy in the Corporate States of Amerka has been brewing for a long, long time. Since Ronald Wilson Reagan, good old “666,” as we used to call him!

illustration bill whittle tax deadbeat

RECORD 1

CIVIL RECORD VERIFICATION: CONFIRM CASE # 20101300981 AT THE COURT HOUSE

Defendant:        Whittle, William              Case Number:   20101300981

Filing Type:        County Tax Lien              Entity Type:       Individual Record

Filing Date:         20100915           Amount Liability:            $93.00

Address:             12611 Pacific Ave #102  City:      Los Angeles

State:    Ca          Zip:        90066

Plaintiff:              County Of Los Angeles   Court Code:       Calosc1

Court Name:      La County / Recorder Of Deeds Action Type:      County Tax Lien

RECORD 2

CIVIL RECORD VERIFICATION: CONFIRM CASE # 199033123 AT THE COURT HOUSE

Defendant:        Whittle, William              Case Number:   199033123

Filing Type:        Federal Tax Lien – Income           Entity Type:       Individual Record

Filing Date:         19901200           Amount Liability:            $25,922.00

Address:             12659 Rd 36       City:      Madera

State:    Ca          Zip:        93637

Plaintiff:              Usa Irs  Court Code:       Ca173

Court Name:      Merced County, Merced Recorders Office           Unlawful Detainer:            N

RECORD 3

CIVIL RECORD VERIFICATION: CONFIRM CASE # 2003854138 AT THE COURT HOUSE

Defendant:        Whittle, William              Case Number:   2003854138

Filing Type:        Federal Tax Lien – Income           Entity Type:       Individual Record

Filing Date:         19950200           Amount Liability:            $26,422.00

Address:             12659 Rd 36       City:      Madera

State:    Ca          Zip:        93637

Plaintiff:              Usa Irs  Court Code:       Ca173

Court Name:      Merced County, Merced Recorders Office           Unlawful Detainer:            N

RECORD 4

CIVIL RECORD VERIFICATION: CONFIRM CASE # 199126935 AT THE COURT HOUSE

Defendant:        Whittle, William              Case Number:   199126935

Filing Type:        Federal Tax Lien – Income           Entity Type:       Individual Record

Filing Date:         19911000           Amount Liability:            $50,217.00

Address:             3765 W Mckinley            City:      Fresno

State:    Ca          Zip:        93722

Plaintiff:              Usa Irs  Court Code:       Ca173

Court Name:      Merced County, Merced Recorders Office           Unlawful Detainer:            N

RECORD 5

CIVIL RECORD VERIFICATION: CONFIRM CASE # 2003323754 AT THE COURT HOUSE

Defendant:        Whittle, William              Case Number:   2003323754

Filing Type:        Eviction With $ Amount Entity Type:       Individual Record

Filing Date:         20060629           Amount Liability:            $812.00

Address:             8405 Rio San Diego Dr Apt 5114 City:      San Diego

State:    Ca          Zip:        92108

Plaintiff:              Sares Regis Holdings Inc              Court Code:       Ca235

Unlawful Detainer:         Y

RECORD 6

CIVIL RECORD VERIFICATION: CONFIRM CASE # 20080584715 AT THE COURT HOUSE

Defendant:        Whittle, William A          Case Number:   20080584715

Filing Type:        Federal Tax Lien              Entity Type:       Individual Record

Filing Date:         20080404           Amount Liability:            $14,149.00

Address:             12611 Pacific Av #102    City:      Los Angeles

State:    Ca          Zip:        90066

Plaintiff:              Internal Revenue Service             Court Code:       Calosc1

Court Name:      La County / Recorder Of Deeds Action Type:      Federal Tax Lien

RECORD 7

CIVIL RECORD VERIFICATION: CONFIRM CASE # 20090343392 AT THE COURT HOUSE

Defendant:        Whittle, William A          Case Number:   20090343392

Filing Type:        State Tax Lien    Entity Type:       Individual Record

Filing Date:         20090311           Amount Liability:            $6,784.00

Address:             12611 Pacific Av #102    City:      Los Angeles

State:    Ca          Zip:        90066

Plaintiff:              State Of California          Court Code:       Calosc1

Court Name:      La County / Recorder Of Deeds Action Type:      State Tax Lien

RECORD 8

CIVIL RECORD VERIFICATION: CONFIRM CASE # 20101659997 AT THE COURT HOUSE

Defendant:        Whittle, William A          Case Number:   20101659997

Filing Type:        County Tax Lien              Entity Type:       Individual Record

Filing Date:         20101118           Amount Liability:            $3,859.00

Address:             12611 Pacific Av #102    City:      Los Angeles

State:    Ca          Zip:        90066

Plaintiff:              County Of Los Angeles   Court Code:       Calosc1

Court Name:      La County / Recorder Of Deeds Action Type:      County Tax Lien

RECORD 9

CIVIL RECORD VERIFICATION: CONFIRM CASE # 20110604035 AT THE COURT HOUSE

Defendant:        Whittle, William A          Case Number:   20110604035

Filing Type:        Federal Tax Lien Release             Entity Type:       Individual Record

Filing Date:         20080404           Amount Liability:            $14,149.00

Address:             12611 Pacific Av #102    City:      Los Angeles

State:    Ca          Zip:        90066

Plaintiff:              Internal Revenue Service             Court Code:       Calosc1

Court Name:      La County / Recorder Of Deeds Action Type:      Federal Tax Lien

RECORD 10

CIVIL RECORD VERIFICATION: CONFIRM CASE # 20110604673 AT THE COURT HOUSE

Defendant:        Whittle, William A          Case Number:   20110604673

Filing Type:        State Tax Lien Release   Entity Type:       Individual Record

Filing Date:         20090311           Amount Liability:            $6,784.00

Address:             12611 Pacific Av #102    City:      Los Angeles

State:    Ca          Zip:        90066

Plaintiff:              State Of California          Court Code:       Calosc1

Court Name:      La County / Recorder Of Deeds Action Type:      State Tax Lien

RECORD 11

CIVIL RECORD VERIFICATION: CONFIRM CASE # 20110671881 AT THE COURT HOUSE

Defendant:        Whittle, William A          Case Number:   20110671881

Filing Type:        Federal Tax Lien Release             Entity Type:       Individual Record

Filing Date:         20101118           Amount Liability:            $3,859.00

Address:             12611 Pacific Av #102    City:      Los Angeles

State:    Ca          Zip:        90066

Plaintiff:              Internal Revenue Service             Court Code:       Calosc1

Court Name:      La County / Recorder Of Deeds Action Type:      Federal Tax Lien

RECORD 12

CIVIL RECORD VERIFICATION: CONFIRM CASE # 2003C009034 844 AT THE COURT HOUSE

Defendant:        Whittle, William A          Case Number:   2003C009034 844

Filing Type:        Civil Judgment   Entity Type:       Individual Record

Filing Date:         20000700           Amount Liability:            $6,379.00

Address:             3765 Mckinley W            City:      Fresno

State:    Ca          Zip:        93722

Plaintiff:              Intl Cr   Court Code:       Ca059

Court Name:      Fresno County, Fresno Municipal Court Unlawful Detainer:              N

RECORD 13

CIVIL RECORD VERIFICATION: CONFIRM CASE # 20100007635 AT THE COURT HOUSE

Defendant:        Whittle, William J           Case Number:   20100007635

Filing Type:        State Tax Lien    Entity Type:       Individual Record

Filing Date:         20100105           Amount Liability:            $4,949.00

Address:             4267 Marina City Dr #504            City:      Marina Del Rey

State:    Ca          Zip:        90292

Plaintiff:              State Of California          Court Code:       Calosc1

Court Name:      La County / Recorder Of Deeds Action Type:      State Tax Lien

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